Confirmed

On the 10th of September, at 10.30pm, my two children and i will board a plane for home. I feel like crap. Yesterday was not a good day. As ex was giving us a lift to my sister in law's house, I gently reminded him that he should have taken the copies of the passports with him. I ummmed and ahhhed about whether i should mention it, finally deciding that I was entitled to say something given that it concerned me as well. He got angry. Told me that i'd already mentioned it a few times (i had mentioned it once before) and that i'd already put the passports on his table a couple of times ( not even possible, cos it's not like he gave them back and then i put them on the tabke again) and that he wasn't trying to delay anything, he just had to get a few things settled first. We continued our short drive to my in-laws place, going a lot faster than when we started out. I didn't get why he was angry. I never do. Even if i can turn it around in my mind to see it from his point of view, i can't see it. But then i can't really do that because i don't know about his circumstances. He never says anything, operating in a cloud of privacy that he's not willing to let me, or anyone, see in to. In that respect, i worry for him. He always thinks he has to do things on his own and he rarely asks for help when he needs it. I didn't really think much more of it and my sis in law and i took the kids for lunch. We don't normally do this, but ahe found out from her kids that we were leaving. A lunch i got a msg from ex asking me if i'd said anything to my doctor. Even though it's none of his business, i told him i didn't say anything, and i hadn't and he asked me agwin if i'd seen the doctor since our decision for me to leave. I don't know what he was trying to determine, but i think the doctor knows and now ex thinks i've told him and perhaps said it in a way that makes me the vicitm in this sordid mess. That on top of the ticket fiasco has added to his anger and so last night he slept at the office. That of course unsettled the kids and they couldn't sleep, so i let them stay up and we watched some dvd's in my room while a storm, literally, raged outside, as if exemplifying ex's mood and reminding us of why we were by ourselves last night. i'm pretty stable at the moment. No spiralling, no black moods, but i'm a little jumpy. I just don't know what to expect when ex comes back. Dysfunction sees dysfunction so whatever i do will be wrong. I'm going to keep to myself, do what needs to be done so i can get home, whatever it takes.